Saturday, January 22, 2005
What can I say Dad? I am not ready yet to let go of you. I will never be ready for that....never. We had so many more good memmories to make together. What do I do now? Where do we go from here? I feel like my heart has been ripped from me, stolen. How can I be the same person without you how do I stand? Where is my foundation? You held us up to a level unreachable by my hands alone. I needed your shoulders to stand on. I said to you, you better not go anywhere. That I wanted you to see my son and teach him what you taught me. Things I can not teach, my love alone can't bring him to where you are. The times we had together, fishing just being outside. The look on your face when you hooked into that big one and then lost it. You just smile not get mad. That taught me more about life then you will ever know now. Sometimes you catch the big ones and your king for the day. Sometimes you lose the big one, but your still king because thats life and in the end we always had each other. It was being there together that mattered not if we even caught anything. Thats what you wanted to teach me, thats what I learned. Every big one from now to ever I will catch for you Dad. I will never stop looking for that look on your face when I reel them in. You, Uncle Dave, Uncle Fred, You guys built something special There is no way to make things right. I was on my way to build an empire, build an empire and sit back on the top of the hill and look down with you and say "Look Dad I built this because of you" and I would gladly give all of it just for one more conversation with you. I wanted to make you proud of me and I know you were but that would not be good enough for me, you taught me better then that. Dad you were at the top of your empire. Any of us would have given anything for you without you saying a word. You are a rich man and someday I hope to be at least half the man you are. To my family, a big part of our lives is gone. Each second that goes by is gone forever let us make them count I love you all and promise to you all that I will try and get around to visiting everyone more often. Dad, I always that I had more time, I wanted to ask you, What is living to you? I think I know the answer just wanted to hear you say it. Thank you for giveing me the best childhood anyone could ever have, the best family, and for your knowledge. As long as I still breath you are still with us. I will always hope for you to pick of the phone when I call. Dad, I Love you 'This love of mine has no beginning it has no end, I was an Oak now I am a willow, I can bend. Though in my life I will not ever see you again. Still I must stay until it is time for me to go'